He loves me

Back to 5 years ago, i choose my way and face everything with my own. I don’t have Jesus in my life. I'm lost and thirsty for the love of God. I remembered there was one time i told myself that i know what is the true love means. I'm so naive about love & i thought i knew what love was.

I get to know Jesus when i was 14 years old. I know Him but i don’t have a personal relationship with Him. Every time He came near to me, i pushed Him away. And day by day the distance became further and further away. I lost in my own world. I have done so many shameful and unpleasant things in the eyes of God. Do u think God will forgive me?

But God says He loves me. He gave me chance to live in the fullness again by moving my heart to repent from my sins and turn back to Him. He welcome me home again. He indeed love me! Everyday I feel blessed and always thankful for everything that He have done for me. He gave me life again and i found that the true love is not coming from the people around me, but its coming from God. The feeling is different when i draw myself near to Him. I feel safe and never feel alone anymore. God is real, He is an awesome God. I pray that each one of you who read this will feel the same way like i do.

Let’s we pray together

O God, send forth your Holy Spirit into my heart that I may perceive, into my mind that I may remember, and into my soul that I may meditate. Teach, guide and direct my thoughts and senses from beginning to end. May your grace ever help and correct me, and may I be strengthened now with wisdom from on high, for the sake of your infinite mercy. Amen.

Blessings & love

Mary

Trust the Lord, He will lead you

I could still remember when that day i have to make my own decision which i know tears, disappointment, and anger will come to both side. But i have to stand firm with one decision.

The relationships that has been built for 5 years leads some people have a thought that it is strong enough and no one be able to destroy the wall of love. Because of the long courting period, some people may think that their really understand they partner. They think their know the real inside their partner. But the fact is, no one does fully understand they partner. Deficient communication is the main problem that leads into trouble to each couples.

I’m not ashamed to tell that it is the main problem which had happened in my previous relationship. One thing is so obvious don’t have in my previous relationship is a communication with God. Many people who do not have a relationship with God because they have either not listened to his self-revelation or they have responded negatively and walked away alone. Thus, they have no relationship and no fellowship with God. There is no intimacy between them and the Creator.

I’ve found love is not enough when we are not be able to communicated with our partner by sharing our thoughts, feelings and experiences until we left to guess. Unfortunately, our guess is usually wrong, and we misunderstand them. When my heart tells me that he is not the man i thought i will spend with for the rest of my life, i know i have to move on with a new life. Even though i am not sure with what will happen next, somehow i  be able to started believing after i pray and ask God to guide me. God is real when He spoke to me to have faith in everything that i asked. In the Philippians 4:6 did mentioned too “Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, let your request be known to God. Praise to the Lord! God gave me strength and power to face the challenges. When everything is falling apart, He comforts me by reminds His precious Words in Joshua 1:9 “Be strong and of good courage: do not be afraid, nor be dismayed, for the Lord your God is with you wherever you go.”  By God’s grace i able to overcome the sadness & fear by believing in Him that He know what to do. The Lord cast my burden when i let Him do His work. Thank you Lord!

A woman after God's own heart

As i was walking in the main entrance of my church, i fell in love with the book of title “A woman after God’s own heart.” i am so curious of how to be the woman in God’s heart and i wish to have it. But the problem was i only have RM10 in my purse.

On may 15th 2010, my fiance bought the book as my birthday gift. i was really happy, and its not only because of the book that i’ve been dreaming to have it but it’s because he understood what i need which is to be obedience in God’s words.

I've learned so many value in this book. I never realize this is the book that really had capture in my heart besides the Holy Bible. It taught me about we as a children of God, we are designed to serve not be serve. We learn to serve as Christ did. As a wife, a wife should serve his husband. ” It is not good that man should be alone, I will make him a helper comparable to him” Gen.2:18 God has designed the wife to be her husband’s helper. We have to learn that a helper is one who shares man’s responsibilities, respond to his nature with understanding and love, and wholeheartedly cooperates with him in working out the plan of God.

Whether you are married or not, serving the people in your life is part of God’s will for you. It pleases Him when you follow His will, benefits the lives of those you serve, and shows Christ to the world. The moment i saw the book, i knew that i have to be a woman after God’s own heart.

“The head of every man is Christ, the head of woman is man, and the head of Christ is God” 

1 Cor. 11:3